Black people have depression too: The root

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I'm left out, forgotten about and told, it's "all in your head"... I've had family members look past my depression and mistake it for just another bad day when in reality this was an ongoing cycle of bad days, bad thoughts and continuous feelings of being unworthy. My past trauma was catching up to me, shit, life was catching up to me. Every year I aged I thought, what have I accomplished since my last birthday? Who do I aspire to be? What is it that I see myself doing for the rest of my life? I felt unsuccessful, so many dead ends, missed opportunities and unfinished goals I left abandoned.My past trauma was enough to cripple my way of thinking and thereafter my actions. What you think, you become, you think positive your life is positive. You think negatively your life will then be negative. So with that being said the mental, the verbal and sexual abuse had an underlying source of pain that I could not easily shake, I was becoming what I been through...

All at once things seem to be falling apart collectively, this is where the depression and anxiety came in at. I was drowning in my trauma, my problems were just too much for me to handle. I was having an incredibly difficult time adjusting through my issues and living my life as a single millennial.

One day I opened up to my Cousin about my depression/anxiety and he told me I needed to get over that shit and that I needed to stop making excuses for not doing what I was supposed to be doing. I had an Aunt tell me that I WASN'T depressed because I went out with my friends' bowling one night. That was 2 years prior... and even if I did go out with my friends that doesn't mean that I don't have anxiety or depression...

I truly believe that black people are ignorant to the idea that their children, grandkids etc can, in fact, can be battling a mental illness right under their nose, that more times out of none stemmed from the way they have treated us growing up...

There's a ton of resources available online if you aren't sure what it is I'm speaking about or going through, I wish people would take the time to actually understand and research for themselves instead of telling someone the way they feel is INCORRECT!

How dare you belittle my pain?

It's not fair to be suffering in silence and no one takes you seriously, anyone that does not have anxiety or depression WILL NOT AND CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHERE YOU ARE COMING FROM OR WHAT YOU ARE FEELING. It will sound overexaggerated and unrealistic that you are feeling the way you do which is why you may not be able to complete your task, be motivated to socialize or attend functions.

The thought of the things that set you off or actually doing those things make you anxious, you overthink, your body chemistry begins to change, you are suddenly uneasy, shaking, breathing heavily, you are in complete panic. On the outside, you may not look as bad as you feel but on the inside, it's BAD.

Most time it's overlooked, and not just by our parents etc, even from outsiders.  I'm a black woman who is stereotyped as having an attitude, is rude, irrational etc, but not as having anxiety or depression...

A black man commits a crime or maybe he doesn't commit a crime, either way, he is acknowledged negatively and lands on the front page of a newspaper as "Prior Ex-felon with a history of illegal substance abuse gives back to the community providing back to school supplies." A white man will rape a woman and land on the front page as "Athletic scholar and former Penn State grad accused of rape. He scored 50 points for his team back in 2009."

Crack floods the black community and we are all labeled as drug addicts and thrown in jail. Heroin floods the white community and it's now an opioid epidemic that needs to be addressed now! They are not judged, they are felt sorry for and sent to rehab where they can get help for their addiction...

Mental health in the black community is serious and very well REAL. So many of us millennials suffer alone because of a lack of support from family and friends etc that do not take the time to understand or sympathize with our day to day struggle. If Someone reaches out for help they SHOULD NOT be ignored or told to "cheer up" because it is never that easy...